Half of the heart

okay so first of all, if you don't like cats pls don't read this. also, if you don't understand why do people love their pet so much, pls don't read this post. it is a warning. so okay, today i lost my super duper crazy cute cat that i love the most among all my 4 cats. yeah i did have 4, but now only 2 left. last 11days, my one and only female cat disappeared without a trace. i was nearly became like a insane girl who called for her lost cat hoping for the cat to reply and come back home. after a time, fine.. move on with my life. i still have my beloved cat, i thought. but today.. everything changed. as i reached home from school, i called for him and no answer. i thought he was sleeping and didn't hear my voice. after i had my lunch, i called my mum and asked her whether tommy(the cat's name) was at home when she went out. she said no, tommy was outside and she couldn't wait for him to come back and she did call for him like million times before she went out. she as well like me, will be worrying like hell if tommy isn't around the house. when i heard tommy was missing from the morning, i somehow felt that the same thing is happening like 11 days ago. what i did was crying and praying for him to come back. i didn't search for him because i know he wouldn't go far because most of the cats around my neighbourhood always hang out near my house because sometimes i give them food eventhough they aren't my cats. the problem is, i don't know whether they're still alive or dead. if they're dead, pls let me know. at least sooner or later, i'll accept it but now i keep on thinking about both of them where are they? are they having a good life in a new place? or do they stay in a cage only? how about the food? and shampoo? all sort of questions will play on my mind.. until i can't concetrate on my study. everything i do now feel soo wrong, haih. MONI & TOMMY, PLS COME BACK HOME! I MISS YOU SO MUCH :(